Thursday, December 12, 2013

ISML 2013 Voting Ballot

ARENA 01: [Accelerator]  Oreki Hōtarō
ARENA 02: Kinoshita Hideyoshi [Abstained] Sakamaki Izayoi
ARENA 03: Levi  [Lelouch Lamperouge]
ARENA 04: Kirigaya Kazuto  [Otonashi Yuzuru]
ARENA 05: Katsuragi Keima  [Sakata Gintoki]
ARENA 06: Araragi Koyomi  [Eren Yeager]
ARENA 07: Kirisame Marisa [Abstained] Hakurei Reimu
ARENA 08: [Tokisaki Kurumi]  Kuriyama Mirai
ARENA 09: Kirigakure Shura  [Lan Fan]
ARENA 10: Takasu Yasuko [Abstained] Yasaka Yoriko
ARENA 11: Fujiwara Chiyoko [Abstained] Ogino Chihiro
ARENA 12: Tachibana Kanade [Abstained] Gokō Ruri (Kuroneko)

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Aren't you ashamed of telling the whole world about your problems ??

"The world never read mine ."
"If it does , I'll be notified about it"

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Ryukyu tak penting. Tapi GACKT------NNHHHHH

Bismillah...

Apa khabar semua? Okay arini saya . . . . . /rolls/

SANGAT TAK OKAY !!!! DDDDDX

NNNHHHHHH------- NAK JUMPA GACKT---- KAMUI GACKT ~!

 Semuanya gara-gara terbaca pengumuman ni kat FB ASTRO ARENA dan untuk mendapatkan kepastian , saya pun mencari kebenaran tersebut dengan menaip "Gackt" "MBPJ" di Google.

Takumi-san no kaigai to kankei ari ka na. Marēshia de kaisai sa reru ibento ni shusseki sa reru yōdesu. FC Ryūkyū no un'ei wa u bon no daihyō no kata no kaisha demo arimasushi. @ ASTROARENA gakkun ga MBPJ sutajiamu de ashita jikkō sa remasu. Soko ni o ai shimashou!
Maka tanpa melengahkan masa , saya mencari tiket hotline untuk perlawanan persahabatan Ryukyu dan Harimau Malaya . Kononnya la nak beli . Tapi ayah tak bagi~
Cume ayah ada cakap Team Ryukyu ada 4 orang pemain Malaysia yang berkaliber dan hebat . #Malaysia #boleh



-sobsob-

Apalah guna tinggal di KL tapi tak boleh pergi sini . Takat drive ke PJ tu apa la sangat T____T
Tiket RM20 pun tak kisah la~ huhu . . ..

Oh. Mungkin segelintir je kot tau yang saya memang peminat Gackt. (level: SASAENG)
Kalau korang perasan la kan , gambar background ni sebenarnya gambar Kamui Gakupo .Vocaloid yang menggunakan suara Gackt . (Ni gambar laki eh . Bukan perempuan)
Dan saya dah menjadi sasaeng Gackt ni since Form 2 . FORM 2. 14 tahun .

Semuanya bermula lepas tengok penampilan Gackt dalam Music Station! Japan kat Animax~ nyanyi lagu Returner~Yami no Shuuen.
PERRRRGGGHHH----- Jatuh cinta pandang pertama :P



Tak banyak yang saya tau pasal Gackt sebab saya tak benarkan obses dengan sesuatu perkara :3
Hati cepat mati kalau terlalu mencintai duniawi . So update sikit2 la pasal Gackt ni tapi ntah nape . Dah 6 tahun dan diri ini masih lagi menyukai lelaki tua ni *u*

~:CHICKEN RULEZZZZZZ:~

p/s: Berharap sangat dapat tengok or tegur Gackt malam ni T_____T

Monday, December 2, 2013

Pilihan buruk sebenarnya bagus ? Hah ?

Bismillah . . .

Sihat semua ?
Dah lama saya tak menulis~ bukannya tak menulis cume malas nak edit dan post .
Draft tu penuh dengan bahan ilmiah yang saya berniat untuk share tapi . . . . nama pun ILMIAH kan ?
Haruslah lengkap dalil segala~ baru post .

Arini cam biase la . Terlajak tido . Nak salahkan hangout tak jugak sebab salah saya la enjoy dalam hangout XD
Sesetengah orang cam~ untung la dapat jumpa kawan2 hampir setiap hari . Saya tak boleh . Sentiasa dikongkong tapi takpe~ itu yang bikin gue berbeda :P

Hahahaha XDDDDD

Btw , tadi scroll kat FB jap then terjumpa page Word Porn . Walaupun ada perkataan porn (hentai/lucah) tapi seratus peratus takde segala tu ye.
Bahasa Inggeris ni . . . tak macam bahasa Melayu . Bahasa Melayu lebih klise~ penuh hiperbola tapi Inggeris lagi up !
Cam penuh ngan hidden meaning la~ korang belajar idiom so korang mesti tau apa yang saya maksudkan .

Burning midnight oil = Staying all night for a certain works

Bukannya 'bakar minyak di tengah malam' . Bomba pun nak rehat weih ==;
Macam bahasa Melayu la~ errr menyalakan pelita pada lewat malam , sepanjang malam . Sorta .

Kaykay~ bukan nak cakap pasal bahasa sebenarnye |D
Masa scrolling tadi , terjumpa la satu kata hikmah yang agak menarik~


"Pilihan yang buruk menghasilkan jalan cerita yang menarik"

Ni terjemahan secara terus dan telus . Jadi , nak kata camne ek ? Saya sokong dengan ayat ni ;3

Rivaille pernah cakap;



Saya tak minat Rivaille . Serius tak suka hairstyle dia . Pelik . Lel .
Tapi ayat dia ni betul2 menyengat . Sebab saya pun dalam dilema~ 

Hidup ni banyak pilihan sebenarnya . Dan pada saya , pilihan ni bukan ada 2 je . Kita boleh mencipta pilihan ke 3 .
Cuma yang membezakan kejayaan kita adalah usaha .
Tak kiralah kau letak berapa banyak pilihan dalam hidup kau tapi kau takut nak melangkah , tak ada apa yang berubah .

Itulah dilema saya . Banyak betul 'What if' dalam hidup saya~

Kalaulah saya terus masuk STFKalaulah saya terus masuk TeknikKalaulah saya apply MRSMKalaulah saya takde FBKalaulah saya tak kenal dunia ITKalaulah saya tak tergoda dengan nafsuKalaulah saya terus pergi pondokKalaulah saya belajar rajin-rajinKalaulah saya tetapkan pendirianKalaulah saya ceriaKalaulah saya tak bodohKalaulah saya . . . . Kalaulah saya . . . . Dan di sini , saya dah mensia-siakan waktu yang saya ada dan terus tenggelam dalam kesedihan masa lampau . Bodohkan ?

Tapi setiap perkara ada hikmahnya kan ?

Kalau 'What if' tu , kita sertakan dengan sedikit rasa syukur , mesti hidup kite tak sia-sia :)

Saya tak pergi STF dan saya pergi SMK , di sini saya mengenali pelbagai jenis orang dan melalui pelbagai pengalaman . Adik2 saya tak berpeluang pergi SMK . Sebab ayah saya nampak apa yang ada di SMK dan habiskan banyak duit menghantar adik2 pergi SBP dan sekolah swasta .

Saya tak pergi Teknik dan saya melalui fasa kemasukan form4 yang menarik! Memula saya berniat untuk register Biology Class , since saya minat Kimia , Organ , manusia XDD
Tapi ayah mahu saya teruskan empayar perniagaan dia . Sebagai anak , takpe la , ikut je la . Restu mak ayah tu lebih penting . Murka Allah SWT terletak pada murka ibubapa . Selagi tak bercanggah dengan syarak , saya rasa takde hal ikut cakap mak ayah .
Mase tu , ntah camne name saya termasuk dalam Akaun . Perggghhhhh aku memang tak tahan duduk dalam kelas Math! Dah la satu kelas je , sampai 50 orang pelajar! Nak dijadikan cerita , guru kelas tu seorang guru yang tidak menyukai saya~ taktau la kenapa. Macam biasa , sesi perkenalan atau ice breaking~ semua orang cikgu tu tanya dan sampai kat saya , baru je nak bangun dan cikgu tu teruskan pengajian dia . Wow . Hampir semua orang (Kami satu batch sangat rapat :D ) backup saya . Beritahu cikgu tu yang saya belum perkenalkan diri . Tapi cikgu tu buat derk je .
Saya pun apa lagi . Darah muda kan ? Terus bangun , tunduk hormat dan keluar kelas . 

^Bad choice . But it leads to a good story .

 Sampai kat bawah , saya terus jumpa cikgu yang menguruskan hal Form4 . Mase tu straight away tulis Perdagangan 1 . Budak-budak yang ada kat situ semua terkejut . Budak glem mintak masuk Perdagangan . Lel .
Tak cakap banyak , saya terus amik beg dalam kelas dan terus masuk kelas PD1. Masuk2 tu je , ramai gak kenalan dalam kelas tu . Dorang ingatkan saya datang cari orang . Pastu masing2 terkejut tengok saya letak beg dan bukak buku , cam takde pape je .
Abis kelas tu , dorang pakat datang tanya kenapa ? Why? Doshite? Gila ke masuk PD ?
Ala . Okay what masuk PD ? Kite nak menuntut ilmu bukan nak berlagak . Like totally~
Pastu ada la member ni (sekarang ni dia buat Law Degree di UiTM . Kami sama-sama sambung asasi tapi rezeki dia kat situ . Siap jadi President lagi) nasihatkan yang potensi saya sangat besar dalam kelas Sains . Dia siap tolong lagi bagitau cikgu yang saya layak masuk kelas Sains . Even cikgu2 yang in-charge kelas tu pun terkejut dengan pilihan bodoh saya .
Berkat kesilapan saya , saya nampak potensi diri saya dan pada hari kedua bersama mereka , saya mengucapkan selamat tinggal dan melangkah masuk ke Sains Kejuruteraan . 
Tapi attitude aku hancur dan teruk sangat . Emo memanjang . Gila ke ?

Ni antara contoh yang saya akan ingat sampai bila-bila . Satu contoh apabila kita membuat keputusan secara tergesa-gesa . Satu contoh apabila kita membuat keputusan kerana mengikut nafsu . Satu contoh apabila kita membuat keputusan tanpa berdoa kepada Allah SWT.


#Credit to random 4.bp.blogspot#

Hm~ pilihan . . . .

Saya pun menghadapi masalah sebegini sekarang . Rasa macam total loser je . Kalau mati , mesti mati dalam keadaan sia-sia .
Cuba untuk berubah tetapi saya takut kehilangan semua nikmat yang saya ada sekarang . Jadi saya cuba seimbangkan antara mengaji agama dan ber-otaku .
Tapi~ masakan dunia boleh sama dengan akhirat :)

Apapun yang terjadi , sama-sama la kita memohon doa agar diri kita sentiasa dipancarkan hidayah dan terhindar daripada sifat munafik .
Kebelakangan ni saya risau kalau saya tergolong dalam orang munafik . Sebab tu saya perbanyakkan diam :)

~:Whatever our choice might be , be sure that we can handle it:~

~:Dreams are not enough . You need effort:~

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Shinsengumi~~~!!

Done watching Shinsengumi! drama~

Eventually, I can relate the tragedy of Kondo Isami with the tragedy of Malay legendary warrior, Hang Tuah.

Both of them are the leader of army~ the heavy of Royal and powerful man on land.
Both of them devote themself for the King and betrayed by the King.

It said that Kondo Isami was abandoned by the royal Tokugawa and was sentenced to death. Since that , the Shinsengumi has fallen but quickly recovered by his second man, Hijikata Toshizo. Kondo was accused for a murder of Sakamoto Tatsuma (Tatsumoto) and there has been clashed between clan or some kind like rebel troop or something.

Meanwhile, Hang Tuah was sentenced to death when he was accused to have an affair with one of Sultan's concubine. Despite of all his loyalty and deed, he was brought to death but saved by the minister who believe in his innocence. Thus, Hang Tuah hid himself in the forest, suggested by the minister. His second man and his best friend, Hang Jebat, couldn't accept the fact that Hang Tuah is dead. So, he went rampage~ kill random citizen and almost everyone in the palace. But it was after the Sultan assigned him to be the leader of army which makes him wonder why and investigate it~ only to find the unjust 'fact'.

How about Hijikata Toshizo ?
He felt the same. He received a secret order to attack another state which might proceed what Kondo has planned. Instead of humilliating himself to stop Kondo's decapitation, he tries to bring back the Shinsengumi's honour and lead his small army for the pride of Shinsengumi Commander.

Hang Jebat wasn't insane~
He was protecting his best friend's pride. The most trusted man in royal family was accused for something so cheap and without second thought, he was sentenced to death, of course Hang Jebat will get pretty mad. Beside, it wasn't war century, I think. It was revenge for his innocent friend which lead him to such rage.

What can I see from both stories are loyalty and abandonment.

No matter how much you keep your loyalty for them in a high rank , one day or soon , they will betray you .
There is always someone who will fight for your honour. Stand for your pride . In their own way~ but that's what I can see .
Trust and loyalty .
Backstabber and abandonment .
Hundred years ago , it happened to our ancestors . Which is not a strange thing if it happen to us , in millennium age.
"Loyalty is an obligatory price , have come with wise"



Sunday, October 27, 2013

So I say a little prayer . . .


An empty street, an empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

I try to read, I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking. (oh no)
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again...

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of

Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take its there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

Say it in a prayer
Dreams will take it there
Where the skies are blue , to see you once again my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again.... My Love.

Monday, October 7, 2013

Pengalaman Kerja Sya~~~

Bismillah . . . .

Tetibe arini ade mood nak menulis~ mungkin sebab baru melawat KFC kot~~ jumpe balik member2~
Rindu seh kat dorang !

Dulu masa kecik , time sekolah la , mak ayah selalu bawak gi ofis dorang~
So masa sekolah dulu , aq dah amik upah / freelance buat montaj~ presentation slide~ tu kat ofis mak .
Kat ofis ayah pulak , aq banyak buat paperwork seperti invoice , tag name ; susun fail segala~ kemas mesin-mesin dalam ofis yang padat tu~ tu dulu la :)

Bila dah besar , starting with abis asasi then tak dapat mana2 universiti kerajaan melainkan swasta , ayah pun paksa bekerja dengan orang .
Nak bagi aku rasa camne bekerja di bawah orang~ ikut jadual orang~ dan gaya kerja orang tu .

1st: KFC TAMAN SUNGAI BESI

Ho~~ time ni sir Rayner yang jadi RM atau Restaurant Manager .
Dia ni memang sporting giler~! Memang tak stress la keje ngan die ! Aku belajar banyak benda~ enjoy sakan~ memang best !
Pastu berkenalan plak ngan Kak Shally (sayang sangat kat akak sorang ni~!! Dia umpama kakak besar dalam KFC tu~) . Walaupun ramai budak cam nakal kan , tapi kitorang tetap hormat senior . Kalau ada customer cari pasal ngan kak Shally , jangan kata BACKUP , COOK pun datang depan kay !?
Ni nama-nama member mase keje dulu~

Malissa     Yanie     Kak Anis     Kak Dewi     Ana     Rizal    Pian     Muz     Kecik     Syana Kak Hamilah     Kak Siti     Mohan     Mak Pet     Kak Su     Azreen     Kak Shila      Hafiz     Azari     Khairunnisa     Melwin     Elvin     Lenglui aa~   Kak Shally


2nd: TNS

Kay~ ni takde memori sangat tapi boleh nampak jurang perbezaan dalam hubungan sosial .
Masa memule keje kat sini , best gak la~~ aq bleh reach target and takde banyak kerenah sangat la para respondent~
Kerja simple . Workplace nice . Tapi aq takde kawan .
Ada la sorang mase taklimat . Tapi susah tau kitorang nak dapat shift yang sama , tempat duduk yang sama so aq berkenalan secara random .
Tapi entah la . . . . sane , overall kenalan aq ialah Indian .
Kalau semalam kau duduk sebelah Indian , dan kau berborak dengan dia , esok pun dia akan tegur kau malah simpan satu seat untuk kau .
Tapi Melayu~
Semalam kau berborak ngan dia , pastu esok kau simpan tempat duduk untuk die dan die akan kata "Sebenarnya saya nak duduk sebelah kawan saya" .Kayfine .
Entah la ! Mostly Malay kat situ giler sombong ! Tau la kau sibuk bercakap ngan responden tapi susah sangat ke nak reply senyuman ??
Dah tu bila bercakap , sibuk tanya "Satu bulan , u dapat berapa K ?"
Oh what~? If I say 5K then we're friends ? Psh~

Sane tak la ramai melayu dan mostly bile ade English speaker , semua passed kat aq . And Chinese pun . So , kawan2 aq kat sini semuanya Indian~
Bukan nak lagak apa la tapi sama2 Melayu , sama2 Islam~ salah ke balas balik senyuman aq ??
Kerja kat situ memang sedap . Gaji pun mantap . Tapi tu la~

So , aq mula terpikir~

Kerja KFC sangat memenatkan dan penuh dengan kerja berat . Seriously , bukan sekali dua customer cari pasal ngan aq . Especially Chinese .
Sorry la cakap but it's a matter of fact .
Penah sekali customer aq mintak paha dan thigh~ kebetulan pulak dah abis part tu , tinggal dada je banyak . Bila aq inform kat customer , dorang suruh aq cari lagi then aq pusing tunjuk part dada je tinggal . Dia maki aq kata aq taktau part ayam yg mane .
==;
Berbulan2 aq tengok ayam , bohong la aq takleh bezakan thigh ngan keel ! Banyak lagi la benda~ penah customer tinggi2 suara , perlekehkan budak2 KFC kononnya bodoh . Kau la bodoh , bangang ==
Pantang betol aq dengan makhluk camni !
Hah ! You want speaking , speaking laa ! I just use a very typical side of English and you were err err err sup dude !! If you wanna fight in english , enter MUET la~ see what band you get =____=

Kay tetibe aq emo |DDD

Tapi tu la~ walaupun kerja KFC tu ramai member~ best+enjoy giler~ tapi gaji ciput .
Caya tak aq penah morning closing (7am - 12am) dalam sebulan dekat seminggu , pastu kerja overtime dalam bulan tu jugak hampir setiap minggu , aq cuma dapat RM600+ .
Bayangkan penat lelah aq sumer dapat RM600+ !

Kerja kat tempat baru ni (Thanks sangat2 to Azari~!!) , dengan system down la~ quota full~ dan bleh dikatakan aq cume keje dalam 2 minggu , dan aq bleh score RM800+ .
Gila tak percaya . Kerja aq duduk atas kerusi , ngadap komputer dan speaking English .
Boleh bayangkan camne girangnya aq mase tu ?


So ni la dia pengalamanku~~~~ ada gak try keje ngan orang Melayu tapi cam hampeh .
Bukak kedai lambat , tutup kedai on time plak .
Kalau pukul 1 bukak kedai pastu gi rehat sampai 2.30 balik tutup kedai pukul 5 , KAU TUTUP JE LA KEDAI TU TERUS !
Aku tak rugi apapun berhenti tak bergaji ==*

Kay la~ sampai sini je~ sori la terkasar bahasa sumer .  . .  in real life , aq senyap sangat coz takde orang nak bercakap . In other life , AKU LA CHAMPION :P

Bye~~have a nice day~!

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Kerjaya

Bismillah....

Am going to make myself clear about this .

I want to be a Forensic Psychiatrist .
Yes !

So , I have to participate myself in Med . Or take Foundation in Health Science . Before proceed in Psychiatric in degree .

In my case , I've taken Foundation in Law , having another 2 certs from GiatMara (Fashion) and UM (Syariah) but till now , I'm stranded in home with nothing to work on except being unproductive .

I want to pursue my dream but dad (since I was a child , he never approve my dream !) has begin to let me choose what I want .
And till now , he didn't .
Fine . I'll be a good girl , listening to my parents and let myself being scold for not taking anything from sleeves .

How can I study Business if I'm not prone to it ??

I don't like economy .
I don't like third party dealings.

I can even make a list of my dreams~

1) Detective
2) Lawyer
3) Chef
4) Mangaka
5) Motivator
6) Govt Servant

But my passion is Forensic . I love crimes and how the criminal do it .

I have to change my dream every year because my dad want me to have a normal work and normal life .

I was 13 when he taught me how to manage his company .
And I was 20 when his company is going down .

Maybe it's my fault . . .  for not trying hard in Engineering .

I can't do Engineering . Neither my sister . She can't do Fashion . But she got 3.5 .
I got 2.5 .
It's useless .

What am I supposed to do ?

> Take TESL and be a teacher .
Which I don't really like .

> Take History and be a teacher .
I can sum that to Legal Studies , if I get the offer .

> Take Business and shut the hell up .

> Take Mechanical Engineering and shut the hell up .

-sighs- All I can do is try , yes ?

And that's why I said . . . . .dead is better than living . . . .

Saturday, August 17, 2013

More Sleep for Lonely People XD

Assalammualaikum and peace be upon you :)
How're ya doing , fella ? May all of you have great days~~



The second statement is relating to my condition now :D

Lately , I've been laughing too much . Even on silly little things and my family find it quite annoying XD
And sleep !
I've been sleeping like I didn't get one !

I don't know why . I've been tired . Emotionally disturbed . But I still can act like nothing happened . Even my sisters can't figure out bout his death .
They thought I had a fight with him . And we'll cool soon .
Yeah . . . . it sadden me , anyway .

I'm worrying too much . That's that . And dad's company is on edge . So , as the eldest , I have to make a move for a new business (just like he wished and we planned) .
But you know , I'm still crying over his death .
It's been months but I really can't take it . It's . . . kinda hurt me when Takasugi mentioned myself as his girlfriend .
Just like what he told him .
. . . . . I can't survive if I keep bearing him that close .
Lets just be friend .
Then stranger .
Like a cycle of breaking up~~ but you still can see your ex lingering with his life~ but mine ? Nope .

Mom even noticed about my condition .
FIRST , she's a mom . MY MOM <3 p="">SECOND , she's a lecturer~ psychology---- no , abnormal state in psychology .
The subject is fun ! I enjoyed myself reading on her books when I was a child . Thus , the development of interest in schizo study was derived from her~

And this is another problem of mine .

I love investigation . I'm looking for a future which might harm my family .
Such as forensic .
Come on~ I've said this before when I was 14 . "The world is getting crucial . Soon , we'll be busy with unforgivable scenes ."
Dad was a special cop . He knows how things go inside . So , he kinda disapprove my ambition .
Lawyer . He allowed me to be one . But I don't like lawyers . Right after I know that we have to defending even a criminal . There are exceptions on that but you'll be in big troubles . And convincing people about hidden facts or additional info ??
They said Honest and Justice can't survive . You need Trick . And I'm getting enough of it .

Oh see ? I've wrote everything here~ and nobody will read this . So glad XD

If and only if Nicchan have time like he used to be . If Kori-chan isn't that busy . If I can be playful like I had with Rin-chan , Neko-chan and BriBri . . .
Perhaps I won't be lonely .
Perhaps I can get over his death .
And get over every sarcasms and criticisms I had after he left .

When he was alive , I used to sleep for 3 hours per day .
But I don't mind . And I didn't get tired .
Because I was happy .
I know I have someone to rely on . After each of them get busy with life .
He's busy too . He told me about his work . His life . His crazy housemates . Boro-chan XDD
But .
He never forget to send greetings .
Day greetings . Night greetings .

That's why I don't feel really lonely .

I have him with me .

Let the world set fire on us . As long as you're here , I know I can survive .

Best friend ?
Like I said , I know they are busy . Sometimes I'm too afraid to send them a Hi because I'm afraid that it might disturb them .
But Koshiro . He's an exclusion .
Because he often seek time for me . Even when I hurt him badly /REAL.BAD/ but he never give up !
I really don't know what's inside his mind .
But I guess . . .  That's love . For him .

Whatever it is , I must try to get over all this things and live with my parents .

I don't have dreams like most of my friends .

As long as mom and dad in peace , I'll be in peace too .


Monday, August 12, 2013

The day you slipped away


Na na, na na na, na na

I miss you~ miss you so bad~
I don't forget you~ oh it's so sad~
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away~
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Oh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Oh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere you're not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same no..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that I found it won't be the same oh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I . . . miss . . . you

Monday, August 5, 2013

I confess~ and get more likes ! Why ? You jealous~?

Peace be upon you , people :)

Ohyeah , I'm back again~ am too busy and pretty stuffed .
And now , I got sick again ):

Okay , so I'm kinda active in Youtube lately . And for most of Youtubers , they must have experienced such thing like 'write stuff /real stuff in mind/ on comment box and get more likes' .

Sometimes you just don't expect on it since it is not your intention .
Sometimes /okay for a person like me/ , we need a space to voice out . It's difficult to utter all those words that scratched our own soul , so we write~
:D

And I was commenting on a song~ which is a quite memorable song to me~ and I get more likes .

O.o

. . . .  I don't even know how !

I mean , there are lots of people who posting more tragical stuffs there and I got more likes than them .

And so , yeah~ people will encourage us , giving advices . . . that's what I like about Youtubers :)

And some people who tend to be haters . They will adding Fuck , Bitch , Motherfucker , lots of nice-to-read-and-get-words~ and end with , 'Ain't get more likes with this !'

Uh-uh~ you jealous , I know~

If I wanna get more likes , I'll go with more scrambling , pathetic words and you'll never understand a shit bout it .

Could you , Youtubers and any social website users , to be respect ?

If you can't yourself into their pathetic shoes then leave .
Or at least , come with an idea of lifting up the person's spirit .
I may be strong but there are lots of pathetic , lowest people who can't get that shit over their head and throw a tantrum and suicidal .
Oh come on~ it's slice of life~

I'm not too young to begin with .

All I did to my friends who love to rants and whatever is UNSUBSCRIBE them .
Or approach them .
But most of the time , I'll just unsubscribe . It's same as hiding so it won't appear in my newsfeed again .
For YT , I'll check out which messages that give intelligent replies then I'll entertain them .
So , mostly I don't reply people who come out with this
"You bitch just trying to get attention"
"Like-lickers"

Oh come on . Who give a heck about likes ???



. . . . . kay . This is war , dude .
Let them be >BV



Shut up , Derek !

Oh btw~

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Ramadan almost leaving . . . and I'm stress here !!!

Assalammualaikum and peace be upon you :)

Yah~ am so glad that am still alive until now .
Still breathing and inhaling the polluted air~ listening to every nagging~

In less than 5 days , we'll be celebrate Hari Raya or Eid Mubarak .
And as far as everybody know about my latest-unwanted-career , so some people are lucky enough to experience this stuff :)

Making baju kurung~

Yeah~ raya nak dekat kot . Slalunye time sepuluh malam terakhir Ramadan ni , saye bleh duduk dengan tenang~ baca Al-Quran sampai khatam , buat kuih raye , biskut raye , decorate house~
That was me when I was a student .
I can't experience those usual things on Ramadan when I was a part-timer , and now as a tailor .
TAILOR KEWWWW ???

Sakit hati ngan tailoring ni .

For some reason , mostly due to my health condition , I'd face some difficulties in sewing all this stuff .
I've done with curtains for the whole house~ and some people know about the sickness I had during 3 weeks of Ramadan , and depression .
People will never stop judging us =___=

And now , I'm doing 3 projects~ all due date on Monday .

And problems occur .

Mom can't wear the baju kurung because the armhole is inadequate
;A;

But when I checked back on draft paper and retrace to make the inseam smaller , IT STILL DIDN'T WORKKKKKKKKKKK------
AND I'M SO TIRED OF ITTTTTTTTTT

You see , I still have to comple 4 more juzuk and time is getting shorter .
Baju melayu moden still have to be fixed on the front (buttons) . And now , I'm so worried of Mak Muza's baju kurung .
All thankful to one failure dress .

Oh sorry . It's the third . Before that I tried to make baju kurung Riau . And funny is , the cloth is too miserable and I'd make several-damn-silly-mistakes which I want to forget .
Experiences~~

And again~
Don't ask why I never come back to that place .
The depression I talk about is again , about people's hopes .
People keep pressuring me with their hopes and never try to listen to what I want . And my kareshi . . . . the longing decreases since I've deleted all our messages .
Am so regret for not listening to the higher-up , for not listening to kareshi , for not thinking further about it .
If and only if I accepting study offer from UPSI , learning Software Engineering , InsyaAllah I won't suffering such things like now .

The situation is pressuring enough------

And I keep regretting for not accepting STF after UPSR  . . . because I'm so afraid of bully . . . and not applying MRSM when I'm qualified for it . . . because I'm so afraid of bully and living faraway from parents . . . . am envying my friends who studying abroad . . . .
I used to say I wanna be a detective .
I wanna join Forensic .
But parents doesn't allowed me to .
I love investigation . . .  and investigating on stars !
Astronomy is an interesting subject 8DD
Too bad I wasn't the best student in Science Stream |DD

I'm so regret of my future now .

I hate sewing . . . . Always skipping ERT sewing classes . . . .  reason why I stay in GM ?
Because I never had fun with my classmates .
Used to have SZERS but I was a fool . Real fool that I wasted on our friendship with silly things .
In GM , everything was fun ~! Real fun that I don't even care about my future .
Back then I've relied too much on kareshi . With hope and no doubt :)

 But after graduation , after auntie told us a real untold story , I've become wary on people there .
My classmates are  exclusions .
Truly said , if you don't like me then tell me . Straight/on/the/face . You don't have to act nicely and pretending !
Because it broke my trust on you !
I hate musuh dalam selimut . Keep that in mind . And I'm no longer a Law student . Keep that in mind .

Geez . . . gotta get back on work . . . am so depressed with all problems I have now . . . really need a space to let it out . . . (but he's gone . . .) . . .ganbatte , Tasya =w=b

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Okay okay~

I'll get back on my work and work and work , just working and die .

Deeprest

Geez . ..  I hate the fact that I've grown up . I've reached 20 and I have to find a fix job .

For this meantime , I really have to rushing for curtain order .

What makes you think sewing is easy huh ??

I don't have talent ! Seriously ! And less people know how depressed I am lately .
It's my fault anyway for acting strong and slumber~ geez !

Seriously , I feel regret so much .

Regret for all decisions I made before .

If and only if I choose to pursue my study in STF right after UPSR , without thinking about being bullied , perhaps I can go further now .
If I choose to go studying in technical school , perhaps I can be an engineer now .

Ohwait . I was a Science Engineering student previously ==;

If only I study hard and forget about stuffs .

If only I not indulging myself into my interest .

If only I study , study , study and ignore virtual world . . .

Perhaps I can further my study in Russia . .  I've always wanted to be an astronomy , back then .

A detective . Yes . . .  but I've forget my dreams . . . in order to keep other's dreams .

And now , I really lose hope with what had happened . Domination . Poker face . Higher up .

...................

I have no one , not a single trustful stranger to tell my problems .

Everyday sewing~ I have less time on my projects~ so I forget MMD . I forget AMV . But have to working on SS . Freaking tired , actually .

...........I wanna be a kid , once again .


Wednesday, July 24, 2013

I CAN SURF NICONICODOUGA XDDD

First of all , I would like to thank my late bf ~ who is a Jap and never give up (LIE ! He often lose temper when teaching me Katakana and Hiragana :'I ) in Hiragana writing lesson~~

Secondly , to my penpal friend~ Atsushi-san :)
Hopefully I can learn more about Kanji !

And to all friends who share the same interest as mine~~~~~ I lurve yer guys XDDD

Oh ! I was inspired by I-chan~~~ aka Izzati @ iOrange <3 p="">
Few years ago I was wondering how did she read all Japanese letters and mix herself among NND ?
Even Rin-chan !
DDX

And now~ I can read and find video smoothly TT^TT

I know I'm lame . Just silent and let me scream happily~

XDDDDDD

OhOh ! And I learn about nosebleed 8DDD

<---- dahecktisgurl="" nbsp="" p="">
Yeah . Again . I know I'm lame .

But not anymore ! I'M REACHING OTAKU STATE AGAIN !!! MUAHAHAHA !!

<---- barusemalamcakapnakberubah="" p="">
>___>

<____ p="">
-_____- ~Sya , please~ umor da 20 kot~ kuboq kata mari , umah kata pi jauh dari sini !

But the temptation---------- I just can't resist my own interest <3 p="">

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Sesungguhnya . . .

Aku tak bersedia untuk berubah .


Mungkin betul cakap ustaz .

Aku terlalu menyukai kehidupan ni . Bebas~ tapi masih dalam lingkungan agama . Cuma aku terlalu menyukai kebebasan ni~

Kadang2 cemburu tengok orang yang bertudung labuh . .. . berpurdah . . . mengaji lancar . Tapi zuhud je .

Aku ni ?
Dah la pakai tudung bawal jarang . Mengaji pun main langgar je idgham sumer . Belajar Syariah pun bukannya top student . Paling penting , x paham satu ape pun !

. . .. . . . . -sighs-

Hidup ni bukannya lama pun .
Aku tau .

Mati tu pasti . Hidup InsyaAllah .
Aku tau .

Tapi , seronok sangat dapat gi karaoke~ shopping ngan kawan2~ beli wishlist items~ Facebook-ing~ bercinta~
Aku tau sumer tu lagha tapi aku teringin sangat !
Budak-budak lain pun pakai tudung , tutup aurat , tapi dorang dapat enjoy sakan ! Kenapa aku tak boleh ?!

Dan sekarang , sungguh sukar untuk aku menjadi hebat cam dulu .

Banyak kejadian yang dah mengingatkan aku bahawa aku dah tersimpang jauh daripada ajaran mama abah .

Dulu aku boleh pertahankan seluruh kelas dengan ilmu2 yang aku ada . Tapi sekarang ?? Macam susah sangat nak ingat balik semua hafazan !
Ya Allah . .. sesungguhnya dunia ni penuh dengan pancaroba . . .

Sekali lagi , aku merindui kehidupan lampauku . ..  . . dan terlalu mengasihi nikmat dunia . . . .


Monday, July 15, 2013

Kos-su Pu-ran-nu de-suuuuuu

Yush~
Am currently observing on this 

Mikasa Ackermen Childhood Costume


Ohoho~ I wanna try something new on this~ well , hijab is an obligation so hopefully I won't be lazy to search for this materials~

What about my Shinsengumi plan ?

I'm giving up on it~ I know it's a waste since I've nicely alter it and make it look fit enough but . ..  I've promised someone to wear on it .
And I just want that person to criticize it .. . .

Told him that I'll cosplay on Hijikata Tenko . 
Just a version of bit slim~ since people said I'm getting thinner while I'm viewing myself as gorilla ==;

Yeah~~ I tried of the costume again~ u know nee when I first puts on the pant , it make me worried like whuut------ bcoz it's smaller to fit my thigh ! But now it fits comfortably ^^;
Then I put on hijab~ wear the scarf all over , making it look like pigtails~ duh . Almost well .
Then I put on eyeliner . Still worse . Need more practice >__>

AND I'M STILL LOOK GIRLY THAN MANLY DDDX

Ohwait . Did I said I wanna cosplay as Tenko ?? Ohyesh >.>

Tenko is Hijikata Toushirou's woman version and it appeared in Gender Apocalypse Arc . 

...........but my dream has gone . He's gone .
I just want to show him how good I am cosplaying on Tenko . And he's gone .
I will never have a chance to listen to him .......
.......... -sighs-

Maybe I'll sell the costume . Just costume and Sougo's eye-mask . Sword is not included ^^
Since it is custom made so I'll just considered as size M/L .
Maybe I don't . I don't know . Have to start on Ackerman's project before sell Shinsengumi's costume~~

Some people said I'm better be Ymir , since I'm quite tanned .
Some people said I should be Sasha Braus~ since I'm a food addict and funkyminded (whuut |D)
Some people said I'm resembling Mikasa~ military type woman , they said ==;


-ureshii no kao- ^___^



Saturday, July 13, 2013

劇場版銀魂: 完結篇: 万事屋よ永遠なれ [Gekijouban Gintama: Kanketsu-Hen: Yorozuya no Eien Nare]


Yia~~~ "It's all comes to an end . . . our world"

Rumour said this will be the last Gintama scene . 
But Sorachi does owe us more episodes on Confessional~ Ikumatsu's Father~ Kagura's Boyfriend~ andandand Gender Apocalypse 8DDD
So , I bet that rumour will stay as rumour~
Probably :/

By the way , Gintama The Final Chapter : Yorozuya Forever is mainly about future .
Remember the Timeskip Arc ? It does related~ as far as I concern la . . . well , people have their own opinions and POA so mind to respect nee ^^


Gintama Trailer 2013 Eng sub Kanketsuhen Yorozuya yo Eien Nare




From this trailer , all I can see is the same Timeskip Kagura~ but a bit more serious and sekushii <3 p="">
Somehow I started to like Kagura since the Hinowa Arc~! Her past slightly changed my POV on her ^^

Andandand------ I can't believe that the white hair girl is Otae 8[]
Ohwell , they just changed in contra . Otae in regular episodes is shown as strong woman . And . . in this movie , perhaps she getting weak or something .

As for Kondo , he is the respectful Commander of Shinsengumi~ despite of his crazy and funky attitude ^^;
But to see him locked inside a prison bar , it just rising the curiousity~!!
What happened to you , Kon-chan~!!? TT____TT
Most of my friends said he was upset with Otae's condition . 
And now I'm trying to relate it with Timeskip Arc again~ to see Otae and Kondo married , as Kondo wished (-_-) , is it related ?? No deshou ? So I'll just wait for the movie to end this curiousity >___>

Credit to another blogger ^^

Ohyess !! I'm viewing Shinpachi and Kagura as Kirito and Asuna !
8DDDDD
DESHOU ??? 
No ?
Mkay .___.

Credit to Gintama Confession tumblr ^^

Okita-kun too~!!

Credit to a tumblr ^^

Much alike nee ??

Some said Hijikata become a betrayal . Some said he just proceed to the next level in National Police Agency . Some said he investigating on Tendoshuu and Joui~
And Shinsengumi no longer exist .
.___.
They said .
I just wrote what I heard >___>
TO END MY CURIOSITY , OF COURSE

Whatever it is , I was questioning on Tendoshuu or to be accurate , Oboro .
He was alive and Mukuro or Nobume-san was his ally ! So there should be no end for this ! I have to know how exactly Nobume-chan was before~ and how did Oboro being killed by Gin-chan~

IT IS ALL IN CURIOUSITY------ OF GINTAMA LOVER , like me :P

Sore jyaa~~ will update this soon~





Friday, July 12, 2013

Ramadhan ke3 Terawih ke4 , 1434

Masih lagi ==;

Tapi jemaah kali ni memuaskan~!! Agak la . . . better than before , as I told in my previous post~

Walaupun bahu tak bersentuh tapi . . . entah la . Dekat la jugak jarak kitorg :/

Takde ape nak citer sangat . Masih lagi terkejut ngan eksiden sendiri . Taktahu la pakcik tu sakit ape tapi die memang bertongkat . Memule nampak die berbual ngan sorang pakcik ni . 
Pastu kawan die masuk balik dalam surau , die pun start enjin motor , terus masuk gear . Memang laju la .
Kalo die tak belok motor tu , alamatnye memang rempuh jemaah yang sedang menikmati moreh .
Kalo die tak lentang terus , kompem langgar barisan motor para jemaah . 
Pakat berlari jemaah 2 , 3 orang tolong pakcik tu .

Memule nak gak terpa pakcik tu tapi momentum motor tu laju . Satu hal .
Aku ni perempuan . Satu hal .
Kalo jemaah lelaki dah ramai kat situ , dan ade yang amik tau . Takpe la . Doakan je la pakcik tu cepat sembuh .

Tapi sentap gak la .
Sebab terbayangkan kalo kene kat abah .

Agak2 , ade lagi ke manusia prihatin kat dunia ni ?

Pakcik tadi tu pun kebanyakan jemaah pandang buat dono~ makan cam takde ape . At least , get up and give some comfort or extra help la . 
Well , even I keep walking like nothing's happened :/

Tapi dalam hati , sapa yang tau kan ?

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Ramadhan ke2 Terawih ke3 , 1434

Misi menyempurnakan jemaah bermula lagi~!

Aku sangat sangat sangat sangat tak berpuas hati ngan jemaah kat sini >[]

Nak kate panas , takde la panas sangat . Row depan je dah sampai 2 , 3 kipas pasang . Blom campur kipas siling . Plus , peredaran aircond dari bilik sebelah . Bukak tingkap lagi !
Nak sejuk camne hah ?! Sesejuk Fraser ?!

Akhirnya , aku mencapai alternatif : Dah laksanakan tanggungjawab so terlepas la dari hukuman kelak .
InsyaAllah .
Tapi abah ajar buat keje jangan separuh jalan . So esok , aku buat lagi . 
Akanku pastikan jemaah esok berada dalam saf yang lurus dan rapat !

Korang pun kene buat sama !
Ni sunnah Rasulullah !
Rasulullah SAW dan para sahabat akan memastikan saf berada dalam keadaan sedia . Lurus dan rapat .
Kerana setiap ruangan udara atau celahan antara kita dan si polan kiri dan kanan , ia akan menjadi ruangan iblis untuk mengganggu kita .

"Tapi bulan Ramadhan mane ade iblis .___."

Pi tanya para ilmuwan . Ustaz Don ke . 
Weih , Ustaz Don selalu tekankan pasal solat jemaah . Pasai apa hangpa takmau tanya dia ?? Pi la tengok balik kat Youtube pasal solat jemaah .
Saya galak dan syorkan anda menonton ceramah Ustaz Don . Memang bagus . Lengkap ngan kitab . Penerangan bervisual . So kita dapat memperbaiki kelemahan kita di situ .




Uhuhu . ..  ni je yang saya dapat jumpe .
Pepandai la korang cari sendiri . Terima kasih pada si peng-upload~!! 
Dapat pahala tau bila kita upload benda yang berilmu dan orang mempelajarinya . Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Kaya dan Maha Pemurah :)

Monday, July 1, 2013

"// I said I want to stay in FnD . The only reason why I am considering about SE because my honour and respect for them to know my capability of achieving such opp . I know happiness won't last forever . I feel it now . For whatever happen in future , I'm ready for the risk . . . . of taking the less travelled path ."

Friday, June 21, 2013

6 Impossible Things

I love how Alice keep herself in high spirit~ remember six impossible things in the world

1. A glass that can shine a room
2. A bunch of metal that can move another metal
3. A wind that is barely visible
4. A window that shows the whole world
5. A solid consolidation that speaking to others
6. A man who rule with faith

#This is mine , Alice#

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Clueless

Haha . . . people may see me as a person with vision .

A person who is strong and tough for every obstacles .

But now . . . I tripped and fell . . . everybody has grabbed my hand but I'm too weak to pull myself to them . . .

Seriously . . . I'm clueless about my future . . .

Kembali pada Allah .

That's what I always had in my mind .

But . . . I don't want to leave anime world . . . rp world . .  and everything that I had now :(

Hnh~~ pathetic XDDD

Saturday, June 1, 2013

My Sullen

. . . growing up . . . life challenges . . . accept changes . . . even though I have parents with me , it feels so difficult to build my own life . While satisfying them .

. . . then , he must be really strong . . . living alone . . . surviving alone . . . . and I keep on being a brat . . . . he just need a little comfort , back then .

Did you leave . . with a smile ? Or are you still alive ?

. . . the same fear I had after finished SPM .

Which is my path ? 


Where will I go ? 


What will I face ? 


Who will I meet ? 


When will it last ?

The same question . . over and over again . . . the same after I graduated from Law . . . the same after graduated from Fashion .

There is another change . . . a huge change that I wanna make . . . but I'm afraid . . I won't be back .
Then I realize , even if I'm here , it's not as fun as before .

So better let it go .

It's me who should go .

Changes .

Options .

Challenges .

Life .

It consists too much .

Which is my path ?

Where will I go ?

What will I face ?

Who will I meet ?

When will it last ?

Till I die . These questions will be gone . Fate . Eternity .

If only he was here . If only life can be forever . Soon , everybody will die .
If I give up now , I'll die here . Earlier than others .

Convince me what's right . Tell me what's better . Assure me that everything will be alright .

Which is my path now ? Where should I go ? What are challenges in box ? Who will be my acquintance ? When will I get on reality ?

-shut eyes slowly-

Monday, May 20, 2013

20 May at Federal Court

Hi~ Just back from Federal High Court , Jalan Duta~

I'm not happy at all so I didn't take any picture inside . Plus~ Court of Appeal in Putrajaya is much lovelier than this place .
Most floors and rooms are out-dated . Causing me and other policemen in troubles~ seek for the room =____=
Update laa map tuuuuuu !

So I was forced to join the judgement (perbicaraan) since I'm the victim in that case~ robbery case in KFC .
Yes~ the one I had last year~ the fake gun on head but trust me , you wouldn't know =____=

Nothing special~ I was tired from yesterday's event~ my limbs in fatigue (huh??) andddddd I'm not happy at all =____=

I don't understand . You did the crime and you said you're not wrong at all ?? Innocent ??
Rude say , FU .
Wise say , pimphead .

Luckily I bring along Black Widow , written by Jessie Keane .
It's quite a nice story~~~ interesting~~~ doesn'thavemoodtowrite "orz

Just telling ya~ when you did something with a partner and team , it is called teamwork .
Even though he's the only one who did that , but you're helping him .
I can charge you under assault . You're freaking responsible for the trauma I had , USOB .

I don't care the court gave me money or anything . Can you give back the 5 hours I spent , sitting in witness room ?? Totally wasting my time just for a criminal who doesn't want to admit his wrong .

Everybody have the right to have freedom .

Well yeah ! You've been transmitted into prison for countless of time and you still robbing ! You're speaking about freedom but you're the one who destroy it ! You're speaking about second chance and I believe your second chance is in the prison .

Turn your head to Allah SWT . Innalillah wa ilaihi rajiun . From Allah you came , To Allah you'll go .

Friday, May 17, 2013

I CAN'T SLEEP -ARU DDX

Tomorrow--- iie , today----ah whatever~~~ 18th May will be the first day camping~~~ organised by me and other Student Council members .

AND I CAN'T SLEEP !!!!!

TOO NERVOUS DAA DDDX

The same feeling when I had any first time experience . . . . FEEL LIKE VOMITT---- urgghhh -falls-

Almost 2 am and I'm still watching Gintama~ trying to ease my worries~

Headmistress put too much hopes and we are doing our best to be the best Student Council team ever formed~~~~

Ohyes--- my role is Leader of Safety and Wealth .
In the meantime , I'm the one who managing transportation and 5 hours ago , we faced a problem . Last minute problem . So I'm in tough situation right now~

Bout performance , since mostly team members are afraid of me------ whyyyyyy ???? I'm not that scary ;A;
Yeah----I'm afraid about my team's capability . . . demo , shinjite imasu~~~~

Watching Gintama doesn't help at all .

Now I'm missing Sou-chan~ Kagura-neechan~ Hicchan~ Zucchan~ Atok Kotarou~ Kagura-ki~ Hijibaka <3 p="">
-------HURRY UP GET YOUR WORK DONE AND ONLINE LIKE USUAL DDDX

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

>___>

I feel betrayed .

Thank you so much .

I feel betrayed and feel worse . Like no one understand my ability of sarcasm . You don't have to come and reap what I sow .

Sunday, May 12, 2013

I'm tired of . . .


The truth inside~

It feels like~ my freedom to speak has limitation~ and now people wishing for the limitation to be blocked~ like forever~

What is it that I want in this world ?
What is it that I want to be ?
What is it that I hope it will be ?

Khalifah~ I tried to stick with that but the desire is too strong to evade .
It's my infinite responsibilities and yes , I accept it .

Just , what do I want in my life ?

Pretend to be strong and wise ?

In fact , I'm getting drown and drunk .
Flails in vague .
Beneath the deepest pit of sarcasm .
People are reaching out their hands . . .
. . . but the gravity force . . . makes me tired of surviving .

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Where's my parfait baka yaroo !!


Haha XDDD
I can't stop laughing at this ~!!!

~:Credit to Hijikata Mayora'Demonic Uke Toushirou and Gintoki Sakata:~