Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Allah SWT Menguji Kita Kerana Dia Tahu....

Allah meguji hamba-Nya kerana Dia tahu keupayaan hamba-Nya

Bacalah.

Ambil iktibar.

Kita cepat mengeluh. Selalu. Dan kita kerap terleka. Terus terlupa.

Andai kita melihat semua masalah kita sebagai ujian Allah SWT dan kita berpegang dengan ayat 286 Surah Al-Baqarah "Allah tidak memberati ( menguji ) seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya…" , nescaya kita mampu tersenyum menghadapi masalah kita.

Cuba baca hadis Rasulullah SAW , Riwayat Tirmizi

Satu ketika Nabi saw ditanya “Siapakah orang yang paling berat ujiannya?”. Maka Baginda menjawab:

“Para Nabi, kemudian orang yang seperti mereka sesudahnya, dan orang semacam mereka berikutnya. Seseorang itu akan diuji sesuai dengan kadar agamanya. Apabila orang itu kuat agamanya maka semakin keras ujiannya. Kalau agamanya lemah maka dia akan diuji sesuai dengan kadar agamanya. Maka musibah dan ujian itu sentiasa menimpa seorang hamba hingga dia ditinggalkan berjalan di atas muka bumi dalam keadaan bersih dari dosa.”

Sebenarnya , kita patut berbangga dengan diri kita kerana diuji oleh Allah SWT. Malah tahap agama kita juga diuji. Secara tak langsung, kita dapat tingkatkan amal ibadah kita. Tingkatkan keimanan kita. Tingkatkan ilmu pengetahuan kita.

Kerana Allah SWT tahu, hamba-Nya boleh mengatasi masalah ini. InsyaAllah, dengan ilmu di dada , iman di hati , Allah SWT tahu. Kerana Allah itu Maha Mengetahui.

Di saat kita diuji, memang tidak dinafikan kita akan bermulut celupar.

Hal ini kerana ia berpunca daripada sifat marah, dendam dan tidak puas hati.

Ya , saya pernah mengalami. Saya pernah memaki dan akhirnya, saya menyesal. Terlambat sudah. Dan ada yang saya tidak pernah menyesal. Kerana daripada ujian Allah SWT, saya tahu erti persahabatan dan saya tahu bagaimana memilih kawan. Matangnya saya kerana ujian Allah SWT.

Tidakkah anda semua gembira untuk melangkah kaki ke tahap yang lebih tinggi? Darjat yang lebih tinggi?

Ia seperti....melangkah daripada SMK ke MRSM seterusnya ke Matriks dan Diploma dan Ijazah dan begitulah seterusnya.

Kata ustaz , darjat manusia dinilai mengikut ilmu. Dan pengiraan ilmu bukan mengikut diploma, degree, PhD kite~ ia dikira mengikut ujian yang Allah SWT bagi.
Bagaimana kita hadapi dan bagaimana kita selesaikannya. Apakah iktibar yang kita perolehi?

Bila baca artikel ni, terbuka hati untuk senyum.
Allah SWT baru uji saya dengan manusia2 yang tidak jujur dalam pergaulan. Belum lagi yang dahsyat2.
Tapi mintak2 simpang! Nauzubillah!

Sayang lagi mak ayah... Sayang lagi keluarga.... sayang lagi saudara mara.... sayang lagi diri ini....

Friday, February 24, 2012

Annual Dinner ~:Evening in Paris:~ or AJL ??

Yeah~ finally !'

The fear of all Foundation of Law students have been resolved~!!
The fear of being ignorance by others for how we look , our appearance.....well, nama pun annual dinner. Baju kene la gempak !

That wasn't my first but yeah , it is the first time I celebrated with people who I know and be with for almost a year. In the same faculty , with the same subject and hold the same responsiblity.

Guess what is my costume~!!

# Dress from Australia~ my mom's
# Pinky shawl
# Pinky-goth-half-boot *raburabu*
# Black glove
# Pinky inner
# Inner veil
# Lacey flower *drools*

Hehe~ I was planned for cosplay~ but it turns to be exactly like the theme.

Almost all people said I look like going to Paris.
Even when I come out from the taxi , the boy said "Welcome to Paris, mademoiselle"

PEERRGGGHHH!!! Imma single lady so don't call me mademoiselle..... yes, I learned that madam is for married. And I'm purely single.

Back to the topic~~~ feel like going to class.
Dull. Emotionless. Restless.
All I think about is escape.
I tried to talk but everybody takes me seriously. Okay. Fine.

But seriously TAK SERONOK BERSORAK TANPA KAWAN KAWAN !!!!!

Everytime I cheer , Everytime I applause , I can hear them said something that not nice to hear~ huh , who cares?

All the performances best~~~~ except singing part.

Dadadadadaddadadadadadidididiididiididididududududuudududuudu~ nothing to say. Chow !

*I've make my friends mad at me. -sigh- *

Do you know that Anastasya is originatedly from Anastasia ?
Now , imagine this girl return to Paris~ the heaven of Earth , the scattered shade of grief.

Thanks to those who praised my 'Evening in Paris' costume~!! ....well, actually it's 'Evening in Harajuku' so I was kinda disappointed. But still happy :)
Sorry for behave like a child~ no explanation for that and sorry for not involve in photoshoot. ~.~

Tonight is the night to be missed and memorise~ because the night like tonight will never be replaced. . . . even in decade. Even by reunion.

Because tonight is the last formal celebration as Foundation of Law students.

Even in despair , even in hesitance , I shall recall it as memories that might fade away.
Even in ignorance , even in hatred , I shall be the demand of complete sequence.

Shall that be , shall that lose , shall thou keep in action of silence dreams. . .

Thursday, February 23, 2012

If Friendship is Measured by Facebook , then It Is Bullshit !

Ya read my statement up there??

Hahaha~ yeah. . .society nowadays have this kind of minded~ I don't know why and I don't know what the heck in their mind =.=

Why did I say like this?

Because a group of so-called-friends ignore me for I-don't-know-what reason.

But what make me positively sure is Facebook.

Yes. I did blocked some of my friends there.
Because they judge me through my FB. They make their own perception based on my FB. That is freaking nonsense. . . !

Why did I block them?
They were my friends. We were close. We helped each other but why. . . ???

One thing. . . . .

I never accept fakers as my friends.


I never recognise a friend who backstab their friend as a friend.
A friend for me is a trustworthy person and at least , they know how to being honest.
If you don't like me , then say it or leave me without hurting or back stabing me.

-sigh-

Pretty sleepy. . . .

I was broken hearted towards so-called-friends' reactions.

Afios :)

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

My Dad using My Mom's FB to Stalk His Daughter's FB. . . .okayfine !

Are you mad ?

No ! Do I look like I am mad ??

Y-Yes. . .

Correct ! I / AM / EXTREMELY / MAD !!!

I mean , do you have to call me at midnight just to inform that you're watching my FB , stalks on everything on my Fb etc etc etc ??
Everytime I heard the tone , I will get super-excited to talk to my parent.
But tonight , the call has killed my smile. . . .

Truly , I will crack that phone later.
I swear I will burn it and sweep away the ashes. . .!

What am I really want to say is MY POST IS MY BUSINESS !!!
MY FB IS MY PRIVACY !!!
MY DIARY !!!
WHY ARE YOU SO FRIGGING TO KNOW EACH OF MY POSTS ?????

INSTEAD OF CALLING MY PARENTS AND CRIED AND YELLED , SO I ATTEMPT MYSELF BY CREATING A MYTH OF WORDS ON FB TO EASE MY SADNESS !
I MADE THAT FOR YOU , TOO !!

WHY MUST YOU STALKS ON MY FB THEN CALL ME AND INTERROGATE ME ?!?!?!!

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHHHHYYYYYY ?!?!?!?!?

-DEEPFUMES-

A call that kill my smile~

I repeat , I am not a person who will call my parents and let them worried of me like hell ! This is my freedom where my heart speaks and my mouth shut ! The world teach me how to speak roughly ! The society teach me the cruel dance !
The dance of dignity and honor !

I'm sorry for saying 'Bitch' to her ! I'm sorry for saying 'Stupid' ! I'm sorry for saying all those 'freak' words but I am not an angel !!
Why must you guys look at me with such honor ? With such pride that I am The Last Malay Lady ??
Okay I am sorry for using FB as my freedom of speech but PLEASE ! GIVE ME A BREAK !!
I DON'T HAVE FREEDOM TO WRITE ON MY DIARY AND NOW EVERYBODY ARE REPORTING MY FB !!

PLEASE LAA ! I didn't disturb you guys. I didn't blast your posts to others so please. . . .I know my position. I know my responsibilities. I know my job but at least , give me a space to breathe my own air.

I don't like the feeling today.

And yeah. . .sorry for posting "Hey~ Do you think I don't know how to pronounce 'Bitch , please~' ?"

It's a sarcasm and my dad don't know that. Fine.

Sorry for being rude but my privacy has been abused
.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Sunday Blurbs.... =='

Penat.

I wonder why people can't accept such word for excuses. . . .I'm tired, seriously.
Well at least my friends won't have to think about classes on weekend.
But please.
I'm freaking tired with delayed works , rejected assignments , etc etc etc
I have to spend for those things and I have to spend for syariah's things.
Study is good but too excessive can drive me crazy. Really.

Plus with major problems and how mentally critical I am now. . . please please please!
Study is not just sit and learn but also we have to stay focus and activate our input system.
Not only that, I have to spend my energy and money before reach there. I need money. Not phone.

Okay~ I am such a spoiled brat but you have to understand why am I becoming like this.
I'M TIRED!! THAT'S ALL!!!
I NEED A REST AND TIME FOR COMPLETING MY ASSIGNMENTS!!!
I DON'T WANT TO WAIT ALMOST AN HOUR FOR BUSES!!!
MY TIME IS LIMITED!!!! So please. . . .when I said I'm tired, please put some concern on me. . .

Cakap senang.
RM6 tambang ke sane. . . okay memang dapat pahala tapi kalau pegi RM6 , balik RM6, makan lagi. . . .makanan kat sini mahal, kualiti tak bagus sangat. . . .still asking why am I always get sick?
Because I'm rest-less.
Frthermore, I'm not working. I'm a full-time student. And my money is gained from my parents'. I know both financial matter more than themself.

Hari Ahad je dah spend RM12 untuk transport. Belum kire makan yg kadang2 smpai RM8 padahal makanan takde sedap mane. Sakit hati.
Okay- Ahad RM20.
Isnin esok? Tambang RM1 + makan RM5 + dinner RM5 +photostat+++ dah berapa dah.
Esok lagi dan esok lagi dan keesokannya.
Sampai satu tahap aq kene SATUKAN breakfast+lunch+dinner utk save budget!!
So I can assure myself not to ask money from my parents!!
Lagi lecturer tanya apsal selalu sakit. INI LA DIA!!!
BENDA YANG SELALU BUAT SAYA SAKIT KEPALA!!!

Tuntut ilmu tu bagus....ye...tau...paham....tuntut ilmu di jalan Allah tu bagus...tapi paham la bile kata tak larat, tak larat la....penat la tiap2 hari ade kelas....stiap hari Ahad, bende yg same je nak bebel...penat sgt....
Bukannya taknak pegi tapi esok kene antar macam2 keje kot. Nanti dah abis sumer assignments, dah abis sumer commitment, baru focus balik kat syariah. Susah...nak buat keje banyak2.
Memang la syariah takde assignment tapi......-sigh- Pegi kelas tersengguk2, penat, tak cukup rehat. . . even ustaz tu pun paham.

Tu je. Bukan susah pun permintaan ni. Bile sy mintak satu bende, tolong dengar. Jangan layan dengan phone dan duit. I am not like other kids.

InsyaAllah. . . .2 weeks left and I will proceed my Syariah classes after that.
In current sessions, let me have my full commitments on one thing.

Law is not easy for idiot like me~

Friday, February 17, 2012

Phone and Money =='

Had a slight argue with my parents. . . .about PHONE and MONEY.

Well , don't get me wrong. They bought two NEW PHONES which is both are not my types. . . .I don't like the keyboard-like-keypad. I want a Vodaphone look alike.
Well , I don't need any because I have already 2 PHONES with me ! Including this so all 4 PHONES!!!
And I told mom and dad. . .
" Instead of buying me new phones, why don't you bank in the $800 into my bank account? I've told you for not waste on something like this. "

My dad looks kinda disappointed so he went off to somewhere. Then my mom told me how he was excited to buy two phones and let me choose or let me have it all.
I was feeling guilty over my stupid action.
They come all way long from the traffic jam of Federal Highway to see me and surprise me but I greet them with what-the-hell attitude.

So, I hugged my dad in public and ask for an apologize. Still, I've spoiled the family mood. . . . .with my selfish attitude.
Now, I am trying to 'like' this phone. . . .I don't wanna use smart phone because it will attract others for nothing. I hate it.

I just want people to know me as 'kampung girl' here~~~~ live to the fullest~!!!

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Apabila law students berpantun. . . .

Hi ! Tasya's here !

This event has begin around. . . .3 weeks after we checked in for the final semester.
We were bidan terjun~ didn't plan and didn't know HOW TO BERPANTUN.
Instead of trying to understand and learn how to berpantun, we choose to ESCAPE.
Yes~~~ we try our very best to get out from there.

But.. . . . yeah~ this is how we create our pantun with Degree-ians~

Kami ini budak asasi
Nak berpantun tak belajar lagi
Apa nak buat dah nasib diri
Terimalah dengan hati yang suci

Cinta Muka Buku Najwa Latiff yang punya,
Putus di Twitter sambungannya,
Kalau saudari bijaksana
Jenayah siber apakah yang melibatkan remaja?

Tak percaya tapi ini yang terjadi
Pertandingan pantun tak pernah disertai
Apa nak buat terimalah dengan sepenuh hati
Apa lagi marilah kita berjual beli

Pada zaman dahulukala
Alam siber belum berleluasa
Bila berlakunya globalisasi dunia
Bagaimanakah alam siber menguasai remaja?

Bunga tumbuh di tepi batu,
Tumbuh mekar dibubuh baja,
Kerja online ada di situ
Menjana duit senang sahaja

Anak kecil ke Pusat Sumber
Tempat ilmu penuh maklumat
Apa lagi kegunaan siber
Tentulah untuk mencari maklumat

Remaja dapat jana Negara
Asyik melayan alam maya
Bukannya remaja membuang masa
Hanya mencari maklumat sahaya

Anak Cina matanya sepet
Cantik bersanggul corak cengkerang
Pentingkah material bernama iPad?
Masa terbuang terleka seorang

Dunia siber dunia tanpa sempadan
Itulah yang sering disama ertikan
Tahukah wahai hadirin sekalian
Maksud dunia tanpa sempadan?

Percaya Padaku Ungu yang punya
Indah Melodi juga miliknya
Solusi masalahnya senang sahaja
Cukuplah sekadar berpada-pada

Duduk santai di pohon kelapa
Laman sosial ditatap dibuka
Gambar diubah pelbagai cara
Jenayah siber apa solusinya?

Jalan kaki ke Pekan Lama
Rasa bosan naiklah beca
Kalau tuan orang bijaksana
Material iPhone siapa yang cipta?

Belayar jauh sang kelasi
Berlabuh sauh menyembah diri
Dunia siber bukanlah fantasi
Mampu dikecapi di hujung jari

Tumbuh melata di pokok sena,
Bunga kenanga cantik rupanya,
Tanpa elektrik tiadalah guna
Tahukah kita siapa penciptanya?

Bersiar - siar di Padang Kota
Berjalan sambil berpuasa
Akta Jenayah Siber juga dicipta
Seiring dengan keadaan semasa

Toleh ke kanan toleh ke kiri
Gusarnya diri resahnya hati
Tiadalah guna banggakan diri
Siber juga mencabar integriti


The final round motion will be Suara Mahasiswa Dalam Pendidikan but we were failed to reach the semi final. Only manage to counter final. But still, I've prepared the pantun just in case IF we manage to beat them :D


Mahasiswa dan pendidikan sukar dipisahkan
Ibarat kuku dan kulit
Andainya ilmu diasah-asahkan,
Nescaya cantiklah kuku sepadanlah kuli

Suara mahasiswa dalam pendidikan
Suara kami dalam pantunan
Tahukah kalian apakah peranan
Menjadi mahasiswa yang jayanya dikenang.



TADAAA !!! BIG PRESENT FOR THE LAST WINNER !!!! XDXDXD


Thanks to them for being such a supportive team~ and I can't forget how embarassing we were and we were trying to run away from there XD


Hihihi~~ notice from akak degree :P
Sorry for took too long to retrieve our present~ >.<''

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Dah masuk lima hari aq sakit.
Yang buat aq risau ialah. . . . . aq dah mula meracau dalam tidur.
Kata Amy , I looked like struggles in pain and unwanted dream.

Pastu kawan aq , Nafsi cakap mungkin ade sesuatu yang menggangu fikiran aq.

Bila aq duduk diam. . .tenang , berfikir jap. . . .betol gak cakap Nafsi.
Aq takot aq kene repeat sem depan.

Aq tak paham kenapa kawan2 yang lain boleh dapat 10/10 , 8/10 , 6/10 dalam test Contract Act.
I mean, kita study same2 , kita gelak sama2 but why korang selalu dapat markah tinggi drpd aq??

Aq sangat tertekan mase madam tulis 'See Me!' kat paper. . .
Okay, silap aq gak tersilap conclude benda tu Invitation to Treat. Padahal ikut Carbolic Smoke case....but why eah??

Masa tu madam cakap sesuatu yg buat jiwa aq tersentap giler2.
"Don't you feel pity to your parent?"

If I am a barbarian, I might yelled back at her.